Hello Fellow Bookworms,
I hope everyone is doing well since we last met. I do have some news. Since we last talked I did decide that I wanted to try sharing my personal writing experiences and here’s why. There’s areas, which I’m sure many of us have, that I struggle with and this most recent one really has me stumped. Sometimes talking about something and letting it out helps people to deal with issues or can even help us solve problems. I am a private person but if I want to learn and grow from others I have to share parts of myself and in return maybe others will share parts and pieces of themselves. Plus sometimes we have to live outside of our comfort zone in order to make room for growth. That doesn’t mean it’s going to be easy but my success with writing will come with my perseverance.
All right, I’m just going to come out and say it. I am having a hard time making myself sit and write. I am currently in the middle of some projects that I have formed for myself. These projects are all in relation to writing and I notice each one has its own amount of attention that I give it before I lose interest and want to move on to do something else. Terrible right?!? Does anyone else struggle with this? I can’t stand it because I love writing but I don’t understand why I am in this funk. I also don’t know what else to do except to keep making myself sit and try to focus on the different writing projects I am working on.
I will say the one thing I am not having a problem with is my journaling. I can sit and journal all day. Now journaling is a little different than the writing projects I am currently working on and that’s because I journal about the personal events happening in my life and how I feel about those issues or events. You know like most people who journal.
I do know that most people would call this writers block. Is it though? I ask that because I have ideas. I know what I want to write about and how I want to write it. That’s what makes it weird to me. Isn’t writers block supposed to be when you can’t come up with any ideas and you don’t know what to write about? I keep asking myself, “Why can’t you sit long enough to focus on what needs to be written?” After much thought I came up with one answer, You Tube. Yup, you read that right, You Tube.
I do not have social media. At one point I had a Facebook page to try and sell things on the Market Place, which I might try again, but other than that I don’t have any sites that I currently go on and use. I thought about getting on Pinterest again. You Tube is considered my social media at this point. Now I don’t post on You Tube, although I have thought about that to, but man do I get caught up watching the videos of others. Everyday I am looking to see what the people I have subscribed to have posted. The more I thought about the time I spend on You Tube, the more I realized I am addictated. I can’t wait to see what the content creators have posted, what new trips are they on, what new foods are the cooking or eating, what new books they are reading, I could go on and on. Long story short I have decided I need to go to YTA (You Tube Annyomis) for my addiction.
Here’s what I decided to do. I decided to cut down on my YouTube time and focus more on reading, journaling, and the blog. The first two, reading and journaling seem to be easier for me as far as keeping my attention goes. I think that’s the best thing to do for now to help redirect my brain. Slowly I can introduce the other two writing projects I am working on. I’m hoping that helps. I do think it could be because of too much digital consumption. Wait is that a thing? Over digital consumption. I do have a job, please don’t think I sit at home and watch YouTube all day. Although,in all honestly, I could use my time at home after work more productively. So here I go, my journey of cutting back on You Tube starts today. I’ll keep you updated as we go.
Until next time Bookworms, stay safe, stay positive.
M.C. Addington 